Difficult

Hello all my supportive friends. You have been a wealth of support to me and I've actually got 2 weeks and 2 days in. But the depression that this cold turkey quit has thrown me into is beyond endurable at this point. I have told you that my youngest child is graduating on Saturday,Herbal cigarettes, I've got family arriving on Thursday, I am crying all of the time and I am not kidding....at the blink of an eye. I know that any parent experiences bittersweet tender moments and even sad ones when their youngest graduates but this is beyond a teary eyed mom.I've held onto my quit because I know that if I start smoking again, I will have to go through all of this again. But maybe I should have stuck with the NRT. That probably would have kept me more even keel than this has been. I don't know. Frankly, I don't know what to think anymore.I honestly thought by this point this would be getting better not sustaining. Trust me,stop smoking, I'm not a depressive person by nature. I've never been a day in and day out crybaby. Matter-of-fact, most people would say I'm a pretty upbeat person. Not anymore. Not at all.I do know that my lungs feel better. My annoying little cough is gone. I don't really think about smoking every five minutes..that has definitely improved. I'm just so *^&^%*^%&^ blue. It's not fair to the person that should be having her greatest cheerleader still shaking the pom poms with joy.I'll get back to you later....thanks for listening.