Help Me!! It Hurts!!

I'm so mad, sad, and disappointed this morning I could just cry ! This quit has been surprisingly smooth for me. The cravings are not what they have been with other quits. In fact sometimes, when I think of a cig, I'm very surpised at how long it's been since my last thought of one. I'm not obsessed with not smoking. Anyway - the reason I'm mad, is because the last few days have been increasingly painful for me. I suffer from terrible canker sores - I believe I have Bechet's disease, but I've not pursued a diagnosis because I have lousy insurance,stop smoking, and I don't want to have a pre-existing condition should I EVER get good insurance. I have been to docs since I was about 10 with this problem and they all say there is nothing you can do for them. I've had them biopsied and they are NOT herpes. I get flare-ups once a month or so and they last about 7 days.Since my quit started,stop smoking now, I've been getting a few a day. The inside of my lips and underside of my tongue are now covered with them so bad that it kills me to talk. I couldn't taste my turkey dinner because I'd slathered so much andbesol in my mouth it was totally numb. Anyway - I googled smoking and canker sores last night and found quite a bit of research that says that canker sore sufferers who smoke usually have fewer and less severe outbreaks and if they quit smoking they go through what I'm going through - it's usually not a temporary thing either from what I gather. I'm so tempted to smoke right now, you wouldn't believe it - but I don't WANT to smoke!!!! I just want some relief! In my life I've tried everything imaginable to ease the pain - nothing really works. I know that Behcet's sufferers are on medicines that help them - but I just can't afford the diagnosis right now, or the meds. Our healthcare system sucks in the US!I'm tired of not being able to speak due to the pain. I've not read my little one her bedtime story for over a week - I avoid speaking whenever I can. And weight gain is NOT an issue right now for me - I can barely eat - I'm living on coffee and oatmeal.Sorry for the long post - but typing doesn't hurt.